Men. They come in various shapes and sizes. Some you let into your heart and some you don't. I have never been a huge dater. At school I was more interested in spending time with my friends than having some huge need to have a boyfriend. At 21 I fell in love for the first time. He's a guy I will always have a special place in my heart. And while i have 'dated' a fair bit since I can genuinly say I have never loved another guy.
A couple of months ago now I broke up with my ex and was suprised at how easy it had been. As much as when we were together I thought he was someone very special, after we broke up I stopped seeing him through rose tinted glasses. Today we did the swap over giving each other back our stuff. And upon seeing the ex i felt nothing at all. It was a bit awkward which I knew it would be. But at the same time i felt nothing. He wanted to remain friends after and as much as he said thats what he wanted he lied to many on any number of IM chats. It was at that point I went from wanting to be friends with the guy to not trusting a single word that came out of his mouth. Men lie. We all know this. What I am surprised at is that in some way this surprised me.
So the new me is putting this last 'relationship' behind me and is ready to move on. So while this will probably not be the last time that pick myself and move on to 'the next guy' at least it will make me grow as a person. Much like this last breakup did.